Looking Back/ New Year’s 2015

The other night my friend and I did our usual New Year’s tradition of exchanging resolutions and checking our previous year’s accomplishments. I did pretty good managing to complete 6 of the 10 resolutions I set out for myself. I suppose this is always a time for reflection and possibility, so why shouldn’t I do the same?

I was looking back yesterday and trying to figure out what I had accomplished in the last 365 days. There are some things I managed to do. Many more I did not manage to get to. And even more ideas and plans that were not attempted for one reason or another. Still taking everything into account, I think I had a pretty good year overall.

Work: I got a job at the beginning of the year and managed to not fuck it up or get fired. This employment is guaranteed, assuming I don’t do anything stupid, at least till August. It’s not the job/career I want but it pays the bills and I am kind of good at it. As well, the hours allow for some side work and hobbies. I hope to change paths in the coming year into something I can see myself doing more long term.

Home: My living situation is not ideal for many reasons, but there is a roof over my head and food to eat so I cannot complain too much. I hope to finally move away from where I currently am and not come back for awhile, or at least not unless it is my specific choice too.

Reading: I read 27 books this year. I kept a running list on my phone and that is the number I ended up with. I wanted to read more than that, but it is not a bad record for a year. As well, this does not include the numerous articles (printed and digital), comics, graphic novels, and random short stories that I also read. I guess that is a pretty big haul in the end. Every thing I read was illuminating, entertaining, and educating to some extent. I also really enjoyed every piece.

Writing: I wrote a freaking book! I finally won NaNoWriMo and am planning to edit in January and February. Add the 124 blog posts of various lengths from this site, the 3,000+ tweets, the Facebook posts/rants, and the odd, random articles I wrote on other sites and I managed a decent amount of writing.

Media: I probably spent too much time watching television & movies, playing video games (though not as much as I would have liked), and spending time on social media. However, I did incorporate this somewhat into my writing and I find hours of entertainment and inspiration from the media I engaged with, so not a total loss. I also found so many interesting, creative people through my endless exploration of media that I hope continue to make awesome shit in the coming year.

Health: Lost a bit of weight and managed to keep some of it off. “Ran” two 5k’s which if you know me understand how that was an accomplishment. Actually got into exercise again and enjoyed the strength and flexibility my body adapted to.

Friends: Reconnected with a few old friends and kept in contact with those that I love and consider true amigos.

Self: Learned a lot about myself this year and came to a few more concrete conclusions. Some I will probably discuss in the coming year and some I’ll keep to myself until I am more sure of what I believe.

Looking back at these last twelve months, I have accomplished some things. I am still not where I want to be in life, but for the first time in a long time, I think I have a better idea of how to get there and what I should be doing. It won’t be easy and I know I will most likely have to go through some shit to get where I want to be. However, I look forward to the new year and beyond.

I have a few ideas and projects brewing and a game plan. So, bring it on Universe because I got shit I got to do!

As a final note, thank you to all the people who subscribed, read, like, commented on, spread, or engaged in any way with the writings on this blog. Thank all 150+ you (yes, even the bots) for taking the time out of your day to do so. You will probably never know how much it meant to me and I hope to make it worth your efforts even more in the next year.

See you all on the other side.

New Year

One of my closest friends and I have an ongoing tradition; every year, for the past six years, we meet up for a cup of coffee, play a game against one another (he beat me this year and I am still a little annoyed at that), chat, and ultimately tell each other a few goals and resolutions for the upcoming year. Usually we both fail at keeping most, if not all, our resolutions, but somehow I manage to actually complete 4 out of the 5 goals I set for myself (Not a humblebrag, I swear). Not really sure how that happened, but I was pleasantly surprised and kind of put a small spring in my step as I moved into the new year. I also have a bit more drive and hope that I will be able to accomplish the goals I have set for myself in the coming year.

This is usually the time where people take stock of their lives and set new goals to accomplish. It is understandable. After all, it is the beginning of something new and fresh, no matter how arbitrary it actually is. Within the last few days, I have read, listened to, and seen various media that deal with goals, life transitions, and achieving one’s goals. While they diverged in their overall commentary, the similarities between them amounted to, essentially: Whatever your goal/resolution/intention is, just start working toward it. There will always be reasons and obstacles in your way, but you just have to start somewhere and keep going.

For some reason, there seems to be a belief currently that success, whatever that means, must come by a certain age. If you have not fulfilled your dreams or aspirations during your youth, then you are past your prime. I suppose part of me had started to believe this to be true and had begun to affect my perspective. However, after I digesting the aforementioned media, I realized that this belief is essentially bullshit. There is no final endpoint or measure. You simply start and keep going. That was my takeaway from everything that has happened this past year, that everything just keeps going. It is never too late to start whatever project you wish to complete, but you have to start and more importantly you have to realize that there is no grand prize or finish line, just the continuance of the path.

The best advice I have read on new beginnings/resolutions actually came today. Basically, instead of making a bunch of checkpoints or goals, just always try to be a better person and citizen. A lofty mission, but one worth try to achieve. I think that is enough for me for now. I will try to be a better individual, a better me. I hope that this time next year I can look back and say with certainty that I at the very least managed to improve to some degree.

I don’t know what the new year will bring, but I will try my damnedest to do and be better and work toward what I have set for myself. I don’t know what plans or goals you have set for yourself, but I wish you the best of luck in achieving them this year and every year afterwards. May we all make ourselves and our communities a bit better than how they started. See you on the other side.

New Years

 

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Today is New Year’s Eve which means that in less than 24 hours 2012 will be gone and 2013 will begin. It also means that at this moment millions of people are planning how to ring in the new year and are declaring resolutions to improve themselves, their lives, or their circumstances for the new year. Resolutions are a tricky thing. Change is inevitable and most of the time it can be a positive thing, but it is hard. Very hard.

Like others, I have been guilty of failing on my New Year’s resolutions and letting my good intentions fall by the wayside. Yet, every year I meet up with a friend and we trade off our resolutions and state, without a hint of irony, that this year will be different. Something about a new time gives us hope that maybe things can be different. Whatever experiences occurred in 2012, 2013 offers the possibility of something more, something better, we hope.

I don’t know what the new year will bring. Some of it will be good. Some of it will be bad. I know there will be change because there has to be and I know for the first time in a while I am genuinely looking forward to it. I am nervous and anxious about what’s over the horizon, but I can’t wait to see what it brings. I have only one real resolution: Be better. Be a better person. Do better in all aspects of life. Think better of others and myself. In short, Be Better. The rest will fall into place as it is meant to.

Hope everyone has a great time tonight and is doing exactly what they want to to welcome the coming year. See you on the other side.